Am I a lost cause? or can i still be saved?

Hi,
My name is "Beauty" everyone has always called me that its not my real name but im afraid to reveal and yet so anxious to explain, im 20 years old and find myself in constant, constant thoughts of sexual escapades, relations and infatuation with any and every aspect of sex, ive read about addiction, had many with self medicating and alchohol abuse, at 19 ive been in and out of rehab.. the soul problems revolve around one major life altering addiction, SEX.. I used drugs to excuse my involvement, drank to have a reason and never really forget my mission.. Im sick, ive tried any and everything, ive lost real people who love me, ive lost pride, and confidence, as i said before i read any and everything to help myself, and maybe this is a last resort, because the outcome always ends the same, i go to read self help books and find my self more fascinated on the stories of trists and ways, exploring my own ways to mirror those ive read up on.. im afraid to admit it, in a social setting or to anyone im involved with, ive jokingly braught up the topic and laughed to find out people just say "oh your just a freak" as if it where a good thing, its becoming painful, im finding more and more ways to aid, and more sickining thoughts, i feel its becoming harmful, and yet i find the danger intoxicating.. i dont know why im saying all this, maybe its needed or maybe its going to cause more struggle.. this email will be another excuse, ill feel the embarrasment and use it to my advantage (technically my disadvantage) im self distructing, and this pain inside of me is turning me into a horrible happy person, i lie i cheat i push away great men because i know in the end im turning to the next for comfort, and it doesnt stop at just men.. I need help and im dying to find it.. please if theres any advice.. allow some of it to be given to me

im so young i just turned twenty and have been told im not a case, but i am, i know it i feel it and i believe i need the help, at my age no female should have done things ive done, or have thoughts of continuing, and find new ways to enjoy such humility.. Im at a last resort.. im going to loose someone who i cannot love because of this..

girlfriend, you have a lot of problems. i am thinking you need to be on prozac, zoloft, or one of those types. seems you have tried all the outlets modern medicine has offered & it has not helped you. at this point i think you are ready for your last resort....God. it may sound far fetched but after reading your story i think He is the only one who can help you now. find a nearby church & ask if they have a female counselor on staff that can help you through this journey. it will be tough but God has great patience. the way i see it, you don't have anything to lose...

as long as ur alive, there is hope. learn the lessons from your past, put the past 2 bed by forgiving urself and start off on a clean slate

please, please...i think you really need to go talk to someone. a therapist, psychiatrist, psychologist...even just a close friend you can trust. any real friend who read this would do anything to make you feel better, and no professional would write you off just because of your age.

i really hope you are able to get some excellent support and everything ends up all right.