I don't know what to do anymore... ?

I've come to the end of my rope...

1) I'm unattractive: I'm 6'3" broad shouldered, and started to lose my hair at age 17, hence I can't attract anyone but the most desperate of girls. Trust me....I've seen the type I attracted.

2) I'm unsuccessful. I have a B.A. in English from Michigan State; in other words, worthless. I subsist on temporary jobs. I will be filing for Chapter 7 bankruptcy in a few weeks.

3) My one semi-friend comes from a semi-wealthy family: mother is a doctor, father is a professor....whereas my father is an unsuccessful attorney, my mother is a loser who works in a drug store and gets state aid for depression....had an affair with our neighbor who saved enough so that she can live in relative comfort.

4) My life is going nowhere and i can see no reason to keep going on, really....I have never had a girlfriend and utterly hated the few girls who dated me....meanwhile, my "best friend" is getting married in August, honeymooning in Jamaica, and is spending next weekend in NYC.

I want to off myself because I'm nothing...my family doesnt care about me and I don't care about them, I have no friends....nobody has even called me in the last four months.

This is another case of testing the patience and tolerance by God.

God can provide the answers you are looking for. But you first need to accept Jesus as your savior.

I know you have been taught in school that there is no God, but this is simply not true.

God can make possible what you cannot do with your own efforts alone.

Before you give up, check out the website below. You are still young and can have a future--with God's help.

You must teach yourself a better set mind frame with renewed thoughts of love before you can teach children.
what are ya gonna do, fail all the fat ones?
learn to like yourself, then you will naturally like others, and in turn they will end up loving you for it.

Get a good anti deressant, it will just help you not to feel self pitty. And allow you to get back into life.

Once the drugs take effect start doing stuff, get your life into order make money, get hair restore tretment.

Hair loss aint so bad, goodluck.

You are VERY shallow and judgemental and seriously immature.
No wonder you are alone. Use whatever intelligence you have to seek out something spiritual that will extend your limited view and teach you to really love.

YOu are WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too critical and judgemental of yourself, therefore you judge others harshly as well.
You can REVERSE this behavior by healing w/therapy. Trust me, you will see yourself and life much much differently with the help of a compassionate professional.
No one, and I mean no one under the sun is perfect in any way whatsoever. There's no such thing as perfection except for God, Universal Spirit {however you perceive the ultimate being/creator to be}.
As long as you keep comparing yourself and everybody else and looking down on yourself and other's, how in the world do you expect to find JOY?
Just give yourself a chance by seeking some professional help.
I see you gave me a thumbs down, but that's expected with your present state of mind.
What I meant by you seeming to be judgemental--is by several examples here. Okay, you say your "semi-friend", either they are your friend or they are not.
Then their family is described as "semi-wealthy"--WHY SEE THEM in terms of their financial status? Why view your family members primarily in terms of their wealth and occupation as well? Why not see them, as REAL--like WHO THEY are inwardly--their good qualities, character, personality-things like this? You know, seeing yourself and other people as SOUL beings. Afterall, this IS the authentic self, aside from what does merely for a living. Who cares about that?--esp. to this degree!
And you act as if you don't have a choice in matters such as girlfriends, and career/jobs,ect.
Actually in reality you do have much more of a choice in both areas. My guess is, even if you have/or will end up dating someone you personally see as "beautiful", you'd eventually find something wrong with her, if you keep these thinking patterns, which you can eventually change with some help, and patience.

I agree with someone up there, I don't remember their name, you should become a teacher, at least a substitute, in Maine subs get paid 70 dollars per day, and I don't know about a full-time teaching payroll, but don't be so judgmental about yourself, it just makes you seem like a worse person, try not to be as negative about yourself because it lowers your self confidence, which is not good for a person in your position, if you start acting a bit happier, maybe try some place like match.com or eharmony or something when you get some money, you might find someone on there, but when you are so negative about yourself, no one is going to like you, trust me. And just try to be happy for your friend, don't let his success compared to your achievements get to you.

If you have a BA in English, you could become a teacher. Why don't you look into it? Teaching can be very rewarding. It will give you something to do so you won't be sitting around by yourself while constantly tearing yourself down mentally.

I've had depression for so long that I can't remember when I wasn't depressed. You have to find a support system. You have to make the effort to get off your @$$ and get out into the world and meet people. It's hard, but you have to do it yourself, because no one is going to do it for you. You get back what you put out there, so stop moping and go.

It took a swift kick in the pants - not to mention a month in the crazy house - for me to realize that it's something I have to do myself. No one else is going to go out and find friends for me.

Come on, you can do it. Hey, if I can bring myself up enough to keep from constantly daydreaming about ways to kill myself - something I used to do incessantly - then anyone can do it.