I think I have an emotional disorder..?

This is gonna sound so dramatic, and it's probably just a part of growing up... But I don't want to go through with wasting my life smothered with sadness when it can be rid of.

I am 14 years and 4 months old, and I'm a girl (In case that isn't obvious) My parents got divorced when I was 7 and my Dad remarried a woman that I very much dislike, but I don't really care because they both live in New Zealand (On the opposite end of the planet to us Canadians) I've been having a few social issues with my friends and boyfriend, however all this sadness started before all the problems occurred.

I get into upset mood swings every day, I used to be a mellow/content character. Now I'm having a hard time even smiling, and I loved smiling. I feel like I'm not worthy of anything, which is associated with feelings of guilt (For no apparent reason)
I'm constantly stressing out about homework and friendships and relationships; things that never used to phase me at all! Sometimes I can be very happy and energetic, and then suddenly have a depression break-down for some stupid, tiny reason. I don't understand why I am turning into such a emotional wreck, it seems unfair.
Also, my Grandmother is Bipolar but doesn't believe it so she ignores the medication the doctor advised her to be on. Just in case that helps anyone, because I did my research; and I know that emotional disorders can be hereditary.

I'm extremely confused and I feel I am in need of guidance, or some sort of aid to tell me what I should do.
Thank you for taking your time to read this, I really appreciate it.

The first answer reminded me that my friends think I am anorexic, and I try not to eat anything. And I started bulimic behaviour very recently. I think my Mom thinks I'm anorexic, too because she's recently started acting weird and asking why I got a large shirt intead of a small size, and telling me, "...Well, you look like a stick to me."
She never said that to me ever before.

I really appreciate everyone's sympathy, I am grateful :)

You're a 14 year old female. These feelings seem like they are just the usual feelings of a 14 year old female. If you researched bipolar disorder, then you should know all the signs and symptoms right? If you are concerned and think there might be a possibility you are bipolar, go get it checked out.
By the time I was 16 I was stabbed, raped, suffered bulimia and after that anorexia, suicide attemps, drug and alcohol abuse, and I was emotionally abused by my stepfather.
I have been through depression like you will not believe...But now I am fine...It depends on how you feel...If you feel like talking email me.
Good Luck.

hun we all have emotional disorder..look at it this way we all feel something thats y we cry love hurt..ect if we didnt we wouldt be normal.. and about mood swings were women thats normal..we wouldt be women if we didnt have them i know your young but what can i say welcome to the women world...

I think it's depression and you should probably go see a psychiatrist it could be Bipolar since it is an inherited mental illness.

im a year older than you and i have been having these problems for 5 years.
I asked for therapy because I have gotten very bad..my dad WONT get it for me
I advise you to ask for it.
Or start off talking to someone you trust.
I will be willing to help you with anything and keep it anon.
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Many people believe that depression is some kind of an illness and it can be cured with tablets or pills but don't worry about it, actually be happy cause I used to be depressed for at least four years. This is the time when you're lonely and think alot, hate life and have thousands of thoughts going through your head daily including suicidal. But you know have patients and cause that is the time when you change, become more mature and simply learn many other things.