Okay, this may seem like an odd question, considering I've seen countless amounts of questions on here asking how somebody can get out of seeing a psychiatrist, aha.
Anyways, I really want to see a psychiatrist. I've done a lot of research, and I think I might be bipolar NOS (Not Otherwise Specified), or something of the sort.
Sometimes I get completely hyper, I get all confident, I feel like I have all the power in the world, like everybody looks up to me, and I can't stop talking and jumping around.
Other times, I get so sad that I can't even get out of bed. I feel like the whole world is against me, like I'm just some freak of nature. I've even contemplated suicide. And I've cut before. Tons of times. Sometimes I'll even pinch myself and cut off a chunk of skin with a pair of scissors.
Sometimes I'll get all aggressive. It's not, like, anger-management-kind, but, like, I-have-to-beat-everybody-at-everything- kind. I'll even GROWL at people! And I get these thoughts of stabbing people that I'm angry at (I wouldn't, though!).
I even argue with myself sometimes. It's kind of like indecision, but I actually get a visual of my thoughts fighting with eachother. It's like I have two different minds.
I never let people see my cry (when I was a kid, my dad used to punish me whenever I cried. He'd say anybody who cried was no better than a baby. He'd tell me that if I cried, everybody would think I'm worthless. And then he'd yell at me for being too sensitive and crying.) and I keep everything bottled up for that same reason. (My dad still punishes me if I cry.) But every night, I cry myself to sleep. I want to let everything out and scream, but I have to cry quietly because my dad sleeps in the next room. And sometimes trying to cry quietly hurts more than keeping it all in.
Since I was little, my family has been kind of messed up. My parents hate eachother, but won't get a divorce because my mom thinks it would hurt me. But it hurts more when they're always fighting and calling the police and Children's Aid, et cetera. They even made some other agency take me away from home for two years when I was seven. For two years I wasn't allowed to see my parents or even my home.
I always feel like the misfit, the freak.
Sometimes I can't even comprehend why I'd get so angry/sad/happy. Like, I completely forget what it felt like.
I want to talk to somebody about it, and, if possible, I want to get some sort of medication that will help. I think all this might be linked to childhood experiences (noted above).
But, whenever I even mention mental disorders or therapists or psychiatrists, my mom would start talking about how she doesn't like people with mental diseases because they're "crazy". If I bring it up to my dad, he starts making fun of people with mental disorders and calls them freaks (this makes me feel like even more of a freak). My dad even called me crazy for talking seriously about psychiatrists.
So, how can I get them to let me see a psychiatrist?
Thank you all in advance!
- Samantha I'd rather not say my age over the Internet.
I am under 18, however. But, unfortunately, there's no counselor at my school. Wow. Sounds like you're in a bit of a predicament.
I know there's no counselor at your school, but do you have a teacher you can trust, someone to confide in, and someone who can possibly help you figure out some sort of arrangement which will benefit you? Do you have a school nurse? (I went and saw my school nurse as well as seeing the psych when my problems first emerged, and she was quite good.) Because you do need help, and I'm sorry that your parents can't see that because of their views.
How old must you be in Canada before you can see psychiatrist by yourself? Is there any way you can make a doctor's appointment and see about diagnosis and a referral to a psych?
You could also try calling a hotline. These are the ones I could find for Canada:
514-723-4000
1-800-667-5005
Kids Help Phone - Tel: 1-800-668-6868
http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/internat...
Or join a mental health forum:
http://www.psychforums.com/viewforum.php...
http://ehealthforum.com/health/bipolar_d...
http://www.bipolarworld.net/
http://www.golivewire.com/
http://www.teen-moods.net/
Other than that, I'm not sure what to suggest. I really hope that you find a way to manage in the meantime, and that one day you're able to move out of home and control whether or not you see a psych and get help. Message me if you like.
Good luck. First of all, your dad seems like an ***.
Second, if there is no school
counselor, go to a trusted teacher
or a friends parent. they will most likely help you.
better yet, they could even take you to a counselor.
It's gonna help. Deff. You don't need them to see someone. Go to your guidance counselor at school or even a free clinic somewhere in your area and make them aware of what your trying to deal with. You deserve the help even if your parents want to bury their heads in the sand. If more people went and sought help before things got really bad there would be so many less sick and lonely people in the world. The system will work, take advantage of it. Haha, I can realted to "My parents hate eachother, but won't get a divorce because my mom thinks it would hurt me."
But on a seriously note, I would suggest going to a school counseller and or a teacher and talking to them. Well how old are you?
If you're under 18, I would start with your school counselor and talk to him or her. Maybe he/she can vouch for you to your parents that you do need some help.
If you're 18+ you don't need your parents permission to see a psychiatrist.
Good luck. You sound like a normal teen to me... And as for the cutting its normally just to get attention (must be an emo). I think like nearly everyone has CONTEMPLATED suicide. You've already confronted everything, why would you need a psychiatrist-?! Maybe its all psychological. It sounds like you want to have a disorder. Are you in america? Cause if so then I guess its the norm to get a psychiatrist for anything right? If your paying for your healthcare- hey why not? Here in the UK its usually someone around you or your doctor who refers you, but I don't think it would be that easy..
Good luck, sorry if I sound rude- just my opinion xD |
