Here's the situation:
My rent (due on the first) was just paid today. My landlord is obviously not happy with me. The reason this happened was because I started school about 5 weeks ago so I work less. My financial aid and loan gets me through the school year because I can't work as much due to being at school. It's not much but it helps. Well the bureaucracy of that has taken until now. I went to the office at school last week and was told that it was going to be applied to my account today.
Today I was told it was actually next Friday. That was horrible since my landlord was expecting the rent today. My husband dropped off the check for the rent, but we're not sure it'll go through. He's a server (he's having the same issues because we both go to school) and is working tonight and tomorrow morning, so his tips will make or break it. People can be cheap and unfair so I'm extremely worried.
I have pretty bad anxiety already. I'm been dealing with this money stress for 5 weeks, and I've been waiting and waiting for this relief. Now like someone is toying with me I'm told it's another week.
In the past month I've had family problems, my best friend has drifted away from me, and I've had house guests. I also already have a full schedule with school and work.
I feel like I can't take anymore. This feels like an anxiety attack that won't go away. I'm constantly on the verge of tears. I use meditation and yoga to help my anxiety normally but this is so bad I can't focus. I feel like I'm stuck in that fight or flight bodily response. This is the worst it's ever been.
I have a test Monday, an online project due tonight, and 2 full days of work ahead of me.
What can I do to calm down? (Obviously I have no money at all)
Please help, especially if you have anxiety as well. First off, take a deep breath...now let it out slowly...again...and one more time.
I suffer from panic and anxiety attacks and your headed straight for one. So please try and think of one thing at a time. Lets start off with the most important. Rent is due. Tell your landlord that it might be best to hold the check until the following Monday, being honest is always a good idea. I'm sure having him wait a couple of days more will do no harm. They can't evict you for being a few days late.
I was a bartender for 25 years, I understand how hard it is to not know how much money you will have at the end of your shift. So try not to stress on things out of your control, you never know it might be his best night ever!
It probably feels that way, like your being toyed with, but your not, these things are all about paper work. You check might clear sooner try and think that way.
I think it's time to se a doctor about this, it's very common for students to have a lot of stress, but that's only part of your stress. You definitely have a big load. The friend and family things needs to be put on the back burner until you can think clearly. Perhaps you can see a counselor at school to get you some relief right now. There always great to vent to and will validate what your going through. Next talk to your proffesors at school and let them know your having a ruff time. Thats what they are there for and are probably more then willing to work with you. Nobody wants you to fail.
Next sugar and caffeine may help you stay up for all your work but it will add to your anxiety. Eat some fruit. Make sure you get plenty of sleep, being all crazed out your mind is no good to anybody.
I wish you all the best.
Feel free to email me anytime.
Take care and never give up! What works for me is to just take one day at a time, one hour at a time, and not project into tomorrow, next week, next month, etc. Right here right now I'm OK. And so are you. It's important to find a power greater than yourself to trust in. Look how far you've come already, isn't that amazing? Peace be with you. |
