What more can I do? Kinda long..?

Okay. Me and my ex would have been together for 2 years this May 5th. We broke up on Valentines day. We broke up because he got pissed every time I wanted to go hang out with my friends, by myself. Well, see I have cheated on him multiple times and thats why he would get pissed off when I wanted to go hang out with friends by myself because he didn't trust me.

Anyways, I know I've f*cked up plenty of times. Well, I have been talking to him again lately and we are probably going to get back together. But he is not for sure if he wants to get back with me because he is scared I will hurt him again which I totally understand! Anyways, I have done and said so much to him to try and show him I don't want to screw him over this time. I actually want a relationship with him. An honest, faithful relationship with him.

I went yesterday and got an std/hiv/aids test. I also have bipolar and I HATE taking my meds for it. Well, he thinks my bipolar will ruin our relationship so I went and got my pills again yesterday. I also talked to my doctor (He's been my doctor for a while and he knows my history with my bipolar and me hating taking the meds.) and he asked why I want to get back on them. I told him why and he said he could set me up with a counselor. I even told Justin (my ex) that we could go to counseling and he said he would go. Then last night he told me he loved me. I looked at him because it shocked me he said that and I said, I love you too and he said I just don't want to get hurt.

How can I prove to him I don't want to hurt him again? Do I just need to let time go on and hopefully time heal us? How can I earn my trust back? I know I have alot to work to do and I'm willing to absolutely ANYTHING.

I also bought him a card and wrote all my feelings in it and he put the card on his dresser where everyone could see it. So, that makes things seem better. If you understand what I mean lol

Do you enjoy hurting him? Because if you give yourself room to falter, you will. If you love him and *really* want to be with him, change your outlook and method of treatment and realize that he has a heart that you've broken and he undoubtedly has patched it up from the things you've done. Be the one to mend his heart back to full, not break it again. From what you said, he seems to love you.. show him your complete and selfless love back to him without strings or games. :)

My friend and I think that you should just let him go. If you love him you wouldn't want to see him get hurt again. You should just be his friend for now and rebuild your trust.

Ok Amber well first off, you have to be HONEST and realistic...to yourself. I'm sure you love him and miss him right and you REALLY want him back but the question is...what happens when you get what you want? When you finally get him back and he trusts you and there's not much to worry about anymore. Do you think you're likely to go cheat again? I'm sure you'll tell yourself "no" right now but you've cheated on him multiple times. Cheating on someone you care about ONCE should be enough to scar you from doing it again, so you're feelings obviously aren't enough.

I know you want to change and hope you can but like i said be honest. Are you really doing this for you guys or is it just because you don't want to seem like such a terrible person? Trust me, you'll look even worse if you do all this and then cheat on him again. What's gonna happen when you're hanging out with your friends and you see a "hot" guy thats really into you...do you REALLY think you'll be able to resist?

Look, time does heal things, and trust can be given back (eventually) but know that it'll probably take a LONG time for him to fully trust you again. Realize that you messed up and make sure you're not wasting his or your time with all of this. You look pretty young so its understandable that you can't control your urges (i was cheated on plenty of times when I was young) but for the sake of this guy's heart, don't do this out of feeling bad

Well, he is a pretty forgiving person to even consider giving you another chance because I would not. You can鈥檛 really do anything more to prove to him that you are serious about not hurting him except don鈥檛 hurt him. He needs to see it over time, you can buy him something special or say special words. Right now its going to lie in your actions and your demeanor towards him. Keep in mind it will take a lot of time for him to forgive you and trust you, a lot of time. And you have to be willing to wait.