Bulimic-- self treatment and aid?

im have been bulimic for 4 years now
and i want to stop
is there a way i can self treat myself without
getting help from others

i've looked up stuff on the internet but it
only directs me to get help by telling someone

finally, how do i know if i permenently swallon my cheeks
or damaged my lungs? because time to time
my cheeks gets really swollen and my lungs hurts like it has liquid unside.. but i goes away after i sleep...

please help.. thank you!

Bulimia is a psychological problem with physical symptoms. To be able to help yourself without outside counseling is nearly impossible because of the mental discipline and control that must be exerted which is somewhat a catch 22 for someone already suffering from the illness.
The other comments about finding positive aspects of yourself are right on and that is only a part of what a professional will being to teach you..
To truly confront this issue you have to get someone else involved to guide you and support you especially when the challenges arise that make you want to relapse.

On the physical damage possibility, there is a possibility that there are long term or even permanent damage but that will depend upon at what developmental age you began this 4 years ago. If all systems were developed and functional before this started, then odds are that most of this will go away when you get yourself back on track.. BUT there are no guarantees over the chat line. Only the proper health professionals will be able to diagnose that..

If you REALLY want to beat this you have to stop being afraid of it and hiding from it. You don't have to blast it out to the world just get the proper medical professionals and core personal support network in place.

Good Luck!!

control your urges to binge/purge...the only way is to get help....

Try stopping on your own.
Wake up every morning, and find something you like about yourself. Example: Weight. All day remind yourself that yourself how beautiful you are, and that your ARE the correct weight.
Write down over and over, I am beautiful the way I am!

you cannot do it alone
you need professional help and a support network