A mind is a terrible thing to waste !!!!?

I am not very sure how to explain my self, but here it goes... I am experiencing a memory problem, which I think is also leading to other problems such as anxiety and depression issues. I have been having this problem for a while however it has seem to worsen. I can have something in my mind to say, however when it come out of my mouth it comes out in bluish way and gets to a point that you words are starting not to make since (blah, blah, blah)... Its like i can start conversation about something and while in the middle of the conversation the thought goes. Well this has created the other problems what i have stated. Because now i feel insecure when I speak because I feel like I am going to the say the wrong thing or make a fool of myself.. Its has gotten so bad that I have to go from job to job because I feel like people are discussing my problem behind my back, and of course I get embarrassed and frustrated at myself . I dont know what to do; I am a very religious guy and I believe in praying about things.. However, this issue is a problem also when it comes down to me having my prayer time.. Because, again I am talking and completely loose my focus and thought; so it even makes me insecure during that time.
I need all the help that I can get right now and all the advice thats out there.. I am not a dumb guy and I consider myself to be very intelligent.. It just makes me feel slow or something right and its even worse because I cant figure out the problem.

I am a 31 y/o male... I dont have any medical insurance and have not had any in a good while. However, I am not very big on taking medicine; I prefer to use more natural herbal products.. I use to have seizures at an early age when I was around 6 y/o and that lasted till about 13... Thank the lord that I have never had another one.. Also the last thing I must add and I regret to say is that I was told I am HIV Positive 10 years ago...By the grace of GOD I have not experienced any health problems nor have I taken any medications for this and dont plan to...However before responding, please answer this question as if you were not aware of the HIV deal. Because this problem with my memory and comprehending started along time ago and just have seem to worsen as I said.. I appreciate all of you who respond to try and help me out in this matter.

Sounds like ADD, are you inattentive, like do you zone/space out much? maybe trouble following conversation and whatnot because you get distracted easily?

Talk with someone in social services for the area where you live. They may be able to assist you in finding a clinic to help you.

Go to speech.
Go to a threapist.
And find a friend.

A friend--- for happiness
Threapist----- do boost confidence and figure out things
Speech- learn memory and saying stuff right

Good luck!!!

I have the exact same problem. If I go to order food at the take out window, I always end up giving the wrong order, some times I hear myself saying the wrong thing and other times I don't.
When I have to write down my phone number it can take me 5 minutes to remember it.
I know exactly what you mean when it comes to saying my prayers...my mind goes somewhere else and that does cause me some distress.
I have written down these examples of my experiences.
I think that stess and anxiety is causing this, instead of this causing the anxiety. I do hope this makes sense.
I am recieving treatment at a mental health clinic they charge on a sliding fee scale so my payments are extremely low $35 dollars a year and I can make payments on this.
I don't know if this helped at all, at least you now know you are not the only one.
God Bless.

WOW! thats very tough, I can't imagine how you must feel. I will say that I WILL be praying for you. I promise, because I can tell you are going through a hard time in your life. I don't have any solutions for you, but I hope one day God will lead you to one. Watever you do, don't give up!


:)