HIV am i freaking out?

hi i love scarleteen you guys have hlped me a lot.. im really really scared i have dated my current bf for 3 years we have sex for the first time like 6 months ago (protected).. we break up 3 months after that but now we are together again.. i trust him but my bestfriend told me yesterday that my boyfriend had a one nigth stand 2 months ago, when she told me that i really freakd out because we had sex (protected) 4 days ago but we didnt use protection for oral sex. i asqued him if it was true and he said that it isnt is but im not sure i told him that he needs to be honest with me because im afraid of STI and even more of HIV he says that he is telling the truth but i dont understand why my best friend told me that so im really scared.. i dont have the money to take an HIV test and its too soon.. what are the odds of me having HIV? i feel really stupid..

i know im really stupid.. but i just cant wait 3 months to get tested.. i cry all day i feel really bad.. i know the odds are on my side but i just keep thinkin what if he is lying.. i know he isnt.. but im scared.. im only 17 and i love him we have been together for 3 years he never cheatd on me...

If you have had protected sex then you have taken no risk doing this.
It is true that HIV can be transmitted by oral sex but the risk is very very small. Furthermore your boyfriend has to have HIV in order for you to get it and for him to have it is also very small even if he had unprotected sex with the girl you are talking about.
So I believe you can forget all about it. But if it worries you a lot then maybe you can take an HIV test.

If you live in the United States, you can go to Planned Parenthood for free STD tests.

Protected sex most definitely reduces the chances of contracting HIV. I am really proud of you that you guys used a condom :) Since HIV is passed through the blood, chances are miniminal to receive HIV by giving or receiving oral sex because HIV does not exist in the saliva. Don't feel stupid because you are taking the necessary steps to stay protected, keep that up! There are many clinics that offer free HIV testing, and some of them can give accurate results with in a month. So, if I were you, I would try to relax because it seems as if your not high at risk.

http://www.hivtest.org/

Check out this web site and type in your zip code to find a clinic near you. Thank you for being responsible and getting tested! good for you!