Marijuana makes you crazy?

i really want people with exsperience with heavy use of pot and brain problems to answer this.

im 19 and i have smoked hash or weed for about 3 years 24-7. i quit about 2 months ago because i had alot of problems. it also left me with no friends and no life. i am very artistic and intelligent with an active imagination and when i was a kid i often washed my hand obsessively . i suspect that i may have early stages of OCD because ever since about 2 years ago i have been checking things multiple times, i think about fire safety and if the doors and windows are locked alot. i have to check them multiple times (oven, ashtrays etc.). it was the worst before i quit. now its gotten much better but i am still worried that i have done permanent damage. im still kind of stupid from the weed but its getting better. i have also noticed other problems.

-hard for me to spell and sometimes read.
-i wake up with poetry in my head sometimes
-a general fear of loosing my mind( thats a biggie)
-fear of HIV (also a big problem)
-mood swings
-memory loss
-fear of forgetting how to talk
-fear of social interaction
-fear of the world ending
-basic fear of almost anything that could hurt or kill me
-fear of poison or hiv in my food
-depression
-sometimes feel like killing or hurting myself

the fear of hiv is the thing bothering me the most, i have been tested negative 2 years ago and am about 2 get tested again. i have not injected anything or had unprotected sex with anyone other than my exboyfriend. but im still worried constantly of getting it just from touching railings or sitting on park benches (they might have needles on them). i know that is impossile to get hiv from just touching something but it still scares me. sometimes i even suspect that people might try to intenually give me or other hiv by poking them with needles, i know its silly.

its much better than it used to be i remember a year ago or so i was so paranoid that when i was outside i though someone would be aiming at my head with a sniper rifle.

im also a hypochondriac.

i know i sound totally crazy. atleast i am aware of my unhealthy behavior.

i plan to see a shrink to get this sorted out. i suspect it might have to do with my brain not having anything to do.

no mean answers, just knowledgeable and helpful ones please.

i did not have these problems untill a year into heavy pot use.

i live in europe so i doubt i will get arrested.

i am totally clean now and have been for two months.

You are an artist.

you need to seek help . thoughts of suicide are not good at all . please seek help the ocd and rest is minor compared too suicidal tendencies .

A police officer can tap into your computer, find out where you live and arrest you...Just a warning.

I have known several long time pot smokers, it can make you lazy,forgetful and in that way-dumb. But upon quitting they set out to be in better physical and mental shape with excercise (which would help your stress alot-you need an outlet) and good food and even vitamins. I think your problems are from before the pot and alot can be helped with counsuling,food, excercise and de-stressing.

mhm....well that explains alot in my case . lol but i actually quit and have noticed i have forgotten alot of thing...small thing though ..im still smart and stuff. i just have a hard time remembering little things.but if you need to get help, then therapy is a good way to go.

It seems like you have a lot of things going on in your head,honestly i don't think weed caused that.it might be a good idea to consult a shrink.Have you done any other drug(LSD) 'those substances cause more brain damage than weed.

Okay sweetie, first you need to breathe! Some facts about HIV will help you for starters. HIV cannot survive in the open air therefore it does not live on railings and the like. It also cannot live in water. For more info on HIV go to www.cdc.org.
You're not crazy. Crazy is an inappropriate adjective for your behavior. I would imagine you began your "career" of marijuana abuse as a way to escape the malfunctions happening in your brain. Unfortunately, pot does cause brain damage although the extent of damage associated with long term use is still a matter of debate. The problem however is not the pot-it's the underlying issues you need to face. Escapism is not going to work. (Trust me on that one. I do believe I may have abused every substance known to man trying that route.) You need to seek help.
I realize that psychiatric help has two negative associations. One it holds a social stigma and two it can be expensive. To address those two associations you need to see beyond the social stigma to realize that your current behavior is in itself socially stigmatized. As for cost, you need to call your local Health and Human Resources division of your state's government. They can refer to low or no cost help. You may go through more than one doctor before you find the right one for you.
Good luck and move forward to a drug free and emotionally healthy life.

i do not think your problems are related to marijuana use.

obviously, with the symptoms you describe, pot is going to worsen things for you.

but i am quite certain that long-term pot use will not "make you crazy" or cause your other symptoms.

definitely see a shrink if you think you should, because from what you say, you do seem like you might have OCD, and be a bit paranoid.