I don't know if I should keep helping my mom?

Okay, once upon a time my mom was a good mother to me. Here's a little info on her background history growing up: her mother wasn't there for her so she was a wild teen and had me when she was 14! Yes, crazy I know, but later in life she found Jesus and raised me in the church.

But she didn't complete get it right then either. I'm the oldest and I have 3 younger siblings and we all have different dads. She did a good job at being there for me and my the sibling directly under me, but when the last two siblings were small children, she shipped us all off to Native American boarding school. It was suppose to be a temporary thing while she moved to California and tried to get settled there so she could come get us out of boarding school. Well...she failed miserably and came back with a crack addiction. She came back my senior year of high school (I am now 24 years old). I didn't know immediately about her addiction because she tried to hide it.

When she came back, we were all living with my grandma. She got an apartment and just supported herself. Her addiction got to the point to where we noticed it (well me and the sibling directly under me who is 2 years younger than me). We didn't know what to think. It got worse, we found out that she started prostituting herself to support her habit. I totally lost respect for her then. She was now a horrible mother. I felt sorry for my youngest two siblings at the time who were around the ages of 6 and 8. They don't know what a wonderful mom she was to me and the sibling under me. She was/is a totally different person, to the point where I had a V.P.O against her.

Ok, fast forward to present. Her addicition got so bad that she now has AIDS. She found out last year. So, me, still loving my mom very much but not wanting to support her habits have been helping her get treatment to manage her HIV. She has gotten alot better, but I still don't let her get too close because she will use me in a second if she is on a crack binge. She has tried treatment once, and has talked about going back, but is still living the life style of a crack-addict.

Sorry for the long story, but I'm getting to the point. Okay tonight she asked me if I would put minutes on her pre-paid cell phone, and I told her I would do it in the morning (I work nights). While taking a late nap before work she bangs on my apartment door. She had gotten a ride to me and demanded that I help her. Reluctantly I tell her that I will try to buy i

Your Mother needs help, but she needs to WANT to get help for herself, It does sound as though you love your mother very much, but you are NOT responsible for the things she is doing to herself and you should not help her get drugs no matter what she threatens you with. You have difficult choices to make, but you cannot ruin your own life for your Mother. God Bless you and help you in this difficult situation.

Hi. You aree going through alot. Search your soul. I would
Not give any money. Give food if she needs. Your mom needs help, but it won't do any good until she is ready to stop
Living the life she is living. Godblesd/Good luck/Peace

People themselves have to want the help. No one else can do that for them. I know this might sound a little harsh but sometimes when all other efforts have failed, you have to let them hit rock bottom on their own. While loving your mother, you are not helping her by giving her a way to call her crack supplier.